Time....can we add a bit more of it to every day?

I read a quote the other day that totally made me stop and think about the little things that I stress over and put pressure on myself to change because they aren't on my to-do list.

It went a little something like this....

Time you enjoy wasting is not wasted time.

I am constantly feeling like I am just getting by with everything in life. Just keeping my head above water. Gone are the days when I am a proactive, overly prepared, always on time person. With life in general, I am constantly feeling stressed about the next thing coming up that I must get prepared for. First it was Carson's first birthday party, then came time to plan Reed's 5th birthday, oh, and I should probably consider what he should wear for his first day of school. Wait, does he need new shoes or will the old ones do? These are regular conversations that go on inside my head. I find I am in a constant battle with myself to not wait until the last minute, but often other things that have to get done get in the way.

As for the quote mentioned above, I totally get a little bit of a heavy weight on my chest, a claustrophobic feeling, when I am not doing something productive in the evening. You know, that time after the kiddos are in bed that is just for you. You can do anything you want, as long as it is in the confines of your house. Honestly, I am usually exhausted by the end of the day and I can't do more than plop my computer on my lap and read useless nonsense while Big Bang Theory is on in the background. Chris and I recently started watching reruns and we heart it. I mean, why didn't we know about this before? Anyway, I say all of that to say that I need to start actually looking at the things that I spend my time on and really find out if it is actually wasted time or not. I mean, I could be doing something more useful, but really, Chris and I have a great time watching the nerdy show together. It does make me happy and really is one of the highlights of my day.

Now, I know there are things that I do use my time on that are unnecessarily wasting time. I can't say that I enjoy looking at Facebook. It really is just a time sink that takes my mind off things that I should be doing. AHHHH, it's a trap!

I think my goal going forward is going to be finding out what I truly enjoy doing with my spare time. And do it. And ENJOY it. No more feeling guilty for things that I enjoy doing that take away from things on the to-do list. They will get done, it just might be right before it's absolutely necessary for it to happen versus being way ahead of schedule. For example, I am not going to stress over the fact that I bought a gift for a party on the way to the party. Yes, I did that! I guess I am kind of a pro at getting things done in the knick of time, so I will embrace it.

I wonder if this is a problem that all moms of young children feel?